Unbearable Suffering: My Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my right eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain behind one eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. โ€œI would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,โ€ she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. โ€œI was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,โ€ she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. โ€œIt steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,โ€ she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. โ€œThe first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,โ€ write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest unusual treatments for what modern experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient โ€œafflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hoursโ€.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like โ€œa modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eyeโ€. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. โ€œYou're exhausted and low, but not in agony,โ€ a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: โ€œThe length of the cycle dictates the treatment.โ€ Short bouts with occasional episodes are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout โ€“ an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Laura Campbell
Laura Campbell

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